time hey so im about to use this platform for something it was never ment for
so move on i suggest:
so this is a honest scream into the dark: please I'm so over it I have
overcome this once already I did not feel myself in this situation due to
misjudgment
or mismanagement everything crumbled away it was taken it was killed off im
all thats left ans syre i did therapy years of it i hold myself together most
days no matter what youll never see me struggle
im always good ya know but now im stuck i cant for the litteral
life of me keep anything that even looks like stability together. im off my
hormones ive died 4 times this month do to seizures and dehydration fell
standing uo and had a concussion at the same time i died wad this close to life
support in fact medical said i didnt breath for over 5 mins after they found me
thats after they found me. the stress is to much im from Alaska i can here
trying to change my position better it but nope cant count on anyone they take
just so you dont have im chronicled as a solid person dependable emotional in
touch and mature with my emotions my vocabulary and to read peoples deep
feelings under what they show is superbly planted
im pretty cute not anything to write about for sure but i do this while being
homeless for 3 years not outside that long just without a stable environment im
willing and prepared to offer everything from my body my service my loyalty my
future profits for christ sake just give me a small place to come back to when
i need ill do the rest and leave me to my work ill make it out make it worth it
to you make a real step into living again maybe ill get to understand what a
smile that doesn't have death on its mind look like please adopt me for awhile
im begging you ill make it worth it i just want out or drive me away from here
please i need out im going to die again to more seizures and then thats it my
experiences will always be weighed with the limitless amount of false hopeless
energy that i have to carry but let me fake it for awhile huh universe please
let me see what its like to not feel this way or atleast get close to someone
who gets to feel something i wanna see what it looks like to live just for a
minute i can leap off that im sure of it but why do i have to hold this its not
even my turn im doing thus to helpout damn it im the lightrod yall need cant i
just see how thw wind feels asking to the ether and the eyes of who knows see
what i see and replace me niw show my whit it is to be .
